577. Alexandra Lemiuex shares her personal testimony (Part 2) - February 21, 2023; June 18, 2024

[00:00:06] Welcome to Wisdom Today. My name is Bill Kelley and I'll be your host. In this podcast we will be exploring the book of Proverbs.

[00:00:15] Father God, I thank you for anyone listening to this podcast today. Lord, I pray that you give everyone ears to hear, and I hard to receive everything you have in store for them.

[00:00:34] In addition, I pray that you give everyone listening favor with both God and man. I ask this in Jesus name, Amen. This is Proverbs 18, beginning in verse 1. A man who isolates himself seeks his own desire. He rages against all Wises judgment.

[00:00:57] A fool has no delight in understanding, but in expressing his own heart. When the wicked comes, contempt comes also, and with dishonor comes reproach.

[00:01:11] The words of a man's mouth are deep waters. The wellspring of wisdom is a flowing brook. It is not good to show partiality to the wicked or to overthrow the righteous in judgeable.

[00:01:26] A fool's lips enter into contention, and his mouth calls for blows. A fool's mouth is his destruction, and his lips are the snare of his soul.

[00:01:43] Words of a tale bear are like tasty trifles, and they go down into the inmost body. He who is slothful in his work is a brother to him who is a great destroyer.

[00:01:58] The name of the Lord is a strong tower. The righteous run to it and are safe. The rich man's wealth is his strong city, and like a high wall in his own esteem.

[00:02:14] Before destruction, the heart of a man is hotty, and before honor is humility. He who answers a matter before he hears it. It is folly and shame to him.

[00:02:29] The spirit of a man will sustain him in sickness, but who can bear a broken spirit? The heart of the prudent acquires knowledge, and the ear of the wise seeks knowledge.

[00:02:45] A man's gift makes room for him, and brings him before great men. The first one to plead his cause seems right until his neighbor comes and examines him.

[00:03:01] Casting lots causes contensions to cease, and keeps the mighty apart. A brother offended his harder to win than a strong city, and contensions are like the bars of a castle.

[00:03:18] A man's stomach shall be satisfied from the fruit of his mouth, from the produce of his lips he shall be filled.

[00:03:28] Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit. He who finds a wife finds a good thing, and obtains favor from the Lord.

[00:03:44] The poor man uses in treaties that the rich answers roughly. A man who has friends must himself be friendly, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.

[00:04:00] Friends, I have a special treat today. I have Alexander Lumieux, and she was on February 21st of 23. So prior to listening to this, I really would ask that you go back and listen to that podcast today, but Alexander, it's so good to have you back on again. Thank you for taking the time.

[00:04:23] Thanks for having me again, and so really honored to be invited again.

[00:04:27] Okay, we just read proper 18 and proper 18 is one of my favorite proverbs. There's so many verses that we all know, and we've memorized them, but it is such a powerful proverb, so which one spoke to you today that you'd like to share about?

[00:04:45] I would say I think the verse 10 should be the one that speaks to me the most in this particular season as the name of the Lord.

[00:05:02] I think I've experienced this year, I've grown so much. I've learned to know God in the new ways that I've never known him before and have relationship with him like never before also.

[00:05:14] It's a magnificent and different things, you know, in just in the daily life like I said when I came to first time, I'm a mom of six.

[00:05:25] So that means my just baby lives is pretty busy and running all the time, so I'm really in a process of learning relationship with God in different things, you know, just simple things, having him with me in the very little things of life.

[00:05:44] And that was a huge learning process and it's still in the process for me, but just to see the difference because you know when you're Christian and you enjoy having time with Jesus.

[00:05:57] It's so easy when you get married or have children to kind of feel like you're losing that you're losing the time, you're losing the availability to be with the Lord and have this precious moment.

[00:06:12] So, truly for me it's the journey where he's teaching me right now my kids are a little bit grown like five to 15 years old, I'll stick to them are between that.

[00:06:23] So I don't have any more babies, not that much. It's really rare now that somebody wakes me up at night or things like that but still it's challenging there are many requests on the all the time or just regular things in the house food and clothes and

[00:06:41] homeworks and who has what which activity which sport with even which even being a student myself now is heading to it and I'm expecting to start a new part time job in a few weeks.

[00:06:57] So all that it really was a season and is still a season where the Lord is showing me in the very little things of life just the daily routine that he is with me and it's.

[00:07:10] If the time I have to spend with them is just doing my laundry knowing acknowledging his presence in me and with me and interacting with him through that or just when I teach my children something just to be reminded that his spirit is bringing words and bringing a life into my mouth for my kids.

[00:07:31] So to really end that that a very that says the right just run to it and our safe to know that being with the Lord every day in the very little thing is a safe life was really something amazing that I'm processing right now.

[00:07:51] Well that's really good you know I'm going to go to Psalm 91 and for those of you who aren't familiar with that that. Psalm primarily talks about being in God's presence and the shelter of God and he will protect you wherever you are.

[00:08:11] But I do I do want to make reference to this you know I think sometimes people who are Christians they they receive Jesus as their Lord and Savior and you know that they everyday life gets busy like you're talking about especially with six kids and that's why really wanted you guys to go back and listen to that because she talks about all the nuances of having six kids and how she you know she develops her life and.

[00:08:41] And just makes everything kind of work together but I don't want anyone to lose track of the fact that we have to have our priorities straight and our priorities should be our relationship with God first.

[00:08:55] And that's one thing we've definitely learned this year both an Andrews class and carries class is that everything that we do in life comes out of our relationship with God.

[00:09:08] Yeah but anyway Alexander you know you wear so many hats so first of all we have to have that relationship with God.

[00:09:16] Then we have to have relationship with our spouse so you fill that wife rule then we have to have our relationship with our kids and you have six of them.

[00:09:27] And like you mentioned between five and 15 and I'm sure that has to be overwhelming at times but then we need to do the call of God which he's placed on our lives.

[00:09:41] Now right now you're a student at Caris Bible College and we are getting ready to finish our second year. And when you came on earlier we have just started second year so I'd like to pick up there.

[00:09:56] And what I'd like to do is ask you how you have enjoyed I.A.Gs. Now that is something that some people do not like some people are just kind of introverted and you know like Andrew used to be our founder of this college.

[00:10:13] And he used to be that way but when you come to know God and the reality of who he is things begin to change you begin to change.

[00:10:23] So if you would just talk a little bit about your experiences with I.A.Gs and how they have helped you grow this year.

[00:10:32] For me I do kind of a treat actually talking to people is really something that I enjoy it's not a challenge much and so during I.A.Gs we're thrown so many different subjects but.

[00:10:50] And it was really amazing to me to hear from all of my own peers around me how how every subject come out of them like what what is coming out I've we have been given the same thing the same topic.

[00:11:05] And so I think I can be an inspiration to everyone of us according to where we are in life according to our relationship with Jesus. It's going to bring something different out of each of us and that to me was really interesting because basically.

[00:11:18] The sources the same, the topic is the thing but then as we go through life. And that's the thing that we are in our process our journey different each of us and that was one thing I really enjoy learning from each other but also.

[00:11:34] And I love to examine behind behind the scene like we're okay this person brings this what's going on in their life I to kind of try to understand the person who is speaking also and also received from their message.

[00:11:49] And I think it was a first time we had I a days on Monday and so I was in ready and there were a lot of things going on in my life.

[00:12:07] In terms of challenges that we're facing right now and so I came in the class and I said, guys I'm sorry it's going to be the first time that I'm not going to volunteer for the first day because usually I do their separate like if it's five minutes it's going to be done in two different.

[00:12:25] hours. So I'm sorry guys this time I'm not going to be first and it turns out that as we started only two or three were ready so I saw everybody around me like I don't want to be picked out.

[00:12:51] So I had thought about this subject but very limited and then I just decided okay I'll do it anyway and I just went with my word and found one verse that was going with what I was going to think about and to say.

[00:13:09] And it turns out I'm going to start to myself doing it actually and but also I have been able to notice that everybody else got less.

[00:13:20] And it really showed me that when you invest in yourself when you sow the word you sow the seed there will be fruit and you can count on it like there will be time where you will be asked to say something to encourage someone to respond to a situation on the very last minute and you don't have time to prepare actually.

[00:13:40] And that I did particularly like a week ago. I think we were to perform a funeral so I want to be prepared. I wanted to do it right but I was in that much prepared but it came out so easily so flu and beat.

[00:13:58] And I actually how got pursues people I decided to talk about funerals and the aspect of their people that you don't know are they say, are they not when they die and then family is.

[00:14:10] Having these questions and the issues and so the way I addressed it was to bring hope and to bring a life and light and.

[00:14:20] That really encouraged me to see how after investing so much I can expect things to just come out and not be stressed do I have it in me do I do I have what it takes to either for people when they need to.

[00:14:37] And it really show me like yes you did so to work so you have to prove already in you and the Holy Spirit is there to help and to remind it and to bring it.

[00:14:48] So yeah I do for me and I'm raising a opportunity to practice but also to. To get to see where I'm at what I son in my life what is the fruit that is available now.

[00:15:02] And because of course when you when you're asked to speak what's going to be come out of you is mostly what you're going through right now and where God speaks to in every area so it was it's a great opportunity to both learn on myself and give what I've learned also.

[00:15:20] Wow you know you bring up such good points and that's really one of the reasons I really wanted to have you on again is because you have insights that some younger people don't have.

[00:15:32] But I want to go to first Peter three 15 and it says you know we always need to be ready to give and account for the hope that is in you and you made reference to that because we never know when we're going to be asked we never know when we're going to.

[00:15:49] When we're going to have to step up and give the reason of the hope that is in us and of course the hope that is in us is Jesus Christ.

[00:16:00] And we have accepted him we have received him and it says in first John 417 that we actually are like him and that should be our goal in life but.

[00:16:13] Alexander I'm going to speak this over you you are a teacher and you know you've had the opportunity to address our entire second year class as have I and you just have a gift of teaching.

[00:16:27] But I'm going to go to James chapter three it says thank goodness not many of us are teachers for we will be held to a higher account.

[00:16:40] First of all I'd like to ask you do you have a desire to teach would you do you feel that God has given you that.

[00:16:50] Yes and it's so how do you go about that verse knowing that we have to be very prudent in the words that we give because people are going to be looking at us they're going to be looking at us as an authority figure and we need to be careful with the words that we speak we will be held accountable what are your thoughts on that.

[00:17:13] So first of all yes I do have this passion for teaching but my husband is teacher in high schools it's funny how I came about to realize that I also have this gift of teaching.

[00:17:28] But to me I think it's a different way that it is for example the teacher in school and for me it really started first by understanding.

[00:17:40] The true power of the gospel the true power of the word of God and when that came in me it I suddenly felt that. I was able to teach it especially to my children and so I have really a passion to teach young one.

[00:17:59] I was able to receive these truths that I am experiencing and how to make them practical and their life.

[00:18:05] So things that would do in the past I had the opportunity to teach like a chapel hour for all the school where my kids were going a couple of times during the year I did that like four times.

[00:18:18] And each time I was really trying to find a way to communicate to them in a way that they would receive it.

[00:18:25] I think that's part of the responsibility a teacher has like you were asking me also thoughts on the duty and the responsibility that we have when we're called to teach and to me that is part of it.

[00:18:36] Like you have to know who you are talking to and how to communicate to them because if I go in front of children and talk to them like I would talk to an adult.

[00:18:47] Most of my words they want to understand and most of my intentionality behind what I'm saying they won't get it. So I think one of the main responsibilities of a teacher is to be able to go to the level of the people that you speak to.

[00:19:03] If it's how you're going higher, if it's lower, go lower but go where the people you're talking to you are communicating to. Oh, our grammar is still the challenge and it was here and there. So I'm not an English teacher for sure.

[00:19:22] So yeah, so for me it can be demonstrated in different things and right now God is also having you pursue arts and to find a way how can I teach through arts, how can I teach through dance, how can I teach through drawing.

[00:19:39] We did that just a week with children and church we have them draw and listen to God listen to God like God what do you want to tell my friend and they didn't know which friend would receive their drawing.

[00:19:51] So it's just that to teach them and then I took their drawings and I would go to some children that and what do you think it means for you and like letting the Holy Spirit give me words for them from a rainbow from a dinosaur or one of them drew a draw, draw a dinosaur and then go from there okay what can it, what can the dinosaurs mean for this little kid that receive that.

[00:20:15] And so I think that's one of the responsibilities to go to the level and make it understandable for the people you're talking to.

[00:20:24] But also to to always remember that because we've got this gift and this opportunity to bring true people we are accountable of not bringing life to life to do not give place in what we are saying.

[00:20:43] To anything that is contrary to the nature of God. So if I'm teaching in a brain's condemnation to someone, I'm not teaching them the true nature to essence of the one I'm talking about.

[00:20:56] So I think it's truly important as a teacher to make sure you reflect the one who's within you because we have the Holy Spirit he lives and he is the one who teaches us that we have to.

[00:21:09] To pull from him to be able to give in a matter that that is authentic. Well, I'm going to go to John's gospel chapter 17 verse 3 and it says and this is eternal life that they know the one true God and Jesus Christ whom he sent.

[00:21:32] Now Alexander we are just finishing up second year and we have all drawn closer to God.

[00:21:39] But if you would share with us your inner most thoughts about how you would truly come to the knowledge of how much God truly loves you and how you are seeking to be like him.

[00:22:00] That's the deep point. I know I'm not very at all. And there is this desire deep deep desire in need to know him even more because I think the more I know him the more I realize how unique and how amazing and great a God in the Father and a friend and husband and all that all that he is like he's such a precious friend.

[00:22:30] And just the more I get to know hearts of his identity is nature, the more I feel like I don't know enough of him.

[00:22:41] Yeah, so this year, well, especially those two years you're one and you're two. I care as early you have played in my heart to always be in that's deep in position of I will never know enough but if I if I remain teachable and if I remain hungry for more he will always give me more and just that fascinating about him like you.

[00:23:11] You will always have something more to discover about his love and how how much his love impact your life will always be fresh as long as you see. And his present and just recently I think I'm fascinated with the word glory.

[00:23:27] I want to teach you a mention during a chapel, Audrey Magminshan how the glory of the Lord is his manifested presence and now I'm kind of studying this whole concept like going back okay what is the manifestation presence of God?

[00:23:43] How is it how can I know him more and manifest him more so I think it's such a fast subject and it's so fascinating to get to know his love.

[00:23:54] And his person, this he is love so knowing his love is also knowing him so that's really one of the things that is on my heart and my pursuit right now to remain in that deep in place.

[00:24:10] Alexander I have been on a thing like you said glory, I have been really dealing with humility lately and in first Peter it says that we are to basically be submissive one to another and what I've come to the realization is God has shown me that other people have things to offer as well.

[00:24:37] I know there's a time and I used to feel this way that I had a tendency to always feel I was right.

[00:24:46] And now I'm coming to the realization that it's okay if people think differently than you and many times other people have better things and they have better perspectives what are your thoughts on that.

[00:25:02] I'll go in a subject of marriage whatever you just asked because I think it's one of the main area where married people with experience. I'm right no I am.

[00:25:15] I think this way but you should take this way because I think this way and just this year one of the things that I'm trying to learn because God spoke to me about it is how I see my husband.

[00:25:27] And for many years I was in a position where I was. Not begging but I was really asking God and seeking like I want to see him through your eyes like help me see beyond.

[00:25:41] The flesh of what is going on or are different opinions or when he's right, when I'm right like help me see beyond that how do you see him.

[00:25:51] And this year it was really interesting to me when it came when this thought from Holy Spirit first came he told me he asked me actually to.

[00:26:02] I learned to look to my husband but to see God in my husband so instead of seeing my husband through God's eye he's asking me to see him in my husband.

[00:26:15] I like the word said that you may be no the reference but I do but when it says that we are to look to people not after the flesh but after the spirit and the spirit within him is actually got in him.

[00:26:29] I see him as for me like so it's the same person living within us and living through us that we are called to manifest like the glory of the Lord is we're called to manifest his presence within us.

[00:26:42] And so it really brought me to a place of I can't say that I did an amazing job I'm still learning it's really learning process but really to get to a point where when I look at someone so it started with my husband but I guess it applies for everybody like that that's humility that's seeing people.

[00:27:05] God in them also because who they are was made informed by the one who created all of us so just looking at people looking at God and people looking at who they are in the spirit I think all that is a major key in relationships and in going beyond what we think or what.

[00:27:33] My opinion my my concerns my thoughts are what is best so for me it's really.

[00:27:42] I think that the value in people value in God and people that is kind of a person or learning during you right now and I think it's an opportunity also to get to know God more.

[00:27:58] Like your privacy with about knowing God and I think as you get to know God through who people are around you it's really humbling experience it's it's bringing us to a place where.

[00:28:13] Just life is not about us it's never been and if they're going to be it's about the one who all made us to be one with them and I don't think it could be a real unity unless we value each other.

[00:28:32] Yeah so it also goes through valuing others opinion and others perspective are are feeling others ideas. Yeah well that's that's so good and you know Alexander one of the requirements of second years that we are required to go on a mission trip but.

[00:28:53] We can get a lot of things out of a mission trip but if you would I know you went to Birmingham Alabama if you would just share your biggest takeaways from that and how that helped change your life. Wow okay.

[00:29:11] I must mention that to me going to Alabama was not my dream sort of like I was in super excited at first but it wasn't long before I was.

[00:29:22] I get like shows from Brace wherever I was going and where the load was sending me and to trust him that where he was sending me was the place I needed to be.

[00:29:32] And before the trip he told me how I would impact a young guy's life and it actually manifested in the way I did not expect it at all it took me a couple of days after the trip and asking God like okay what was it about and you said that where where is that and.

[00:29:49] God really show me the unity that was built among our team and that trip which was pretty special because we were a group of 17 people from like 20 years old to probably 60 something I don't want to give a more to the person no I think we have someone over 70.

[00:30:10] Yeah and so being a bunch of different people with different background different culture different life. Like I have a lot of kids and most people in my group don't have kids.

[00:30:25] So just to see how God took all of us and brought us in this unity of serving together being one being there for one another supporting each other. And it's really a great way to be able to do that.

[00:30:41] And I think that's the way I was going to be holding the strength out of each other that was amazing but it's really after the trip where like I said I was in that much excited for you to go to Obama so when I started hearing.

[00:30:52] I was going to go back from here open had done a lot of sweet evangelism went to people in the really poor or dark places and stuff like that at first I was like God I wish I could have seen that too.

[00:31:05] And as I soon at this thought came to me it wasn't even done that the Holy Spirit told me hey you were part of that.

[00:31:15] One of the class that really impacted me this year was a class of mission with Dr. Jerry Williamson and he taught a lot on the the concept of there are centers and there are sent ones.

[00:31:29] Actually the mission of bringing the gospel of message in this whirling of just in our neighborhood or anywhere cannot be accomplished without a partnership without unity among the body of Christ.

[00:31:44] I mean that was the biggest thing because it goes beyond this mission trip it goes beyond just carousness, this year our group by in second year it goes. It goes so yeah it reaches the whole body actually and to value the everybody's part in this body.

[00:32:06] And also how partnering is such an important thing and we teach you a lot about partnership like financial partnership and prayer partnership. And that was really something that empowering me like when I realized that fundraising together for all these mission trips that are clasped in.

[00:32:27] And we were at our Africa South America North America Europe like everywhere we go or someone in our class did go we were all there we are one body we are.

[00:32:41] One group getting trained in the world getting trained to be tools for the gospel and it really gave me a new perspective of how not only in this class but in the whole body we are one and we have to.

[00:32:59] And people get into their calling get people into what they were made to be in may to do and that will only be possible if we partner value each other value each other's dream and help each other with our finances and.

[00:33:17] It really brought a new perspective even for all the money I had to raise still because with all the moving from Canada with all the challenge we've been hearing that the fall I couldn't do much of the fundraising in that time so I had to do it during the second part of the year and it was kind of a rush.

[00:33:37] I had to give me a new passion a new direction to do it because now I was like I'm not only financing what I did.

[00:33:44] I'm financing what we did and also it helped me also bring this perspective to people that were investing and like you're not only investing in people in Alabama or in my life because I'm I'm bringing to that process.

[00:33:59] But you're investing in all of us in 300 400 people that went abroad and went to share the gospel and you're investing in all these.

[00:34:08] 100 as in thousands of people who heard us who hosted us who received or we had to share those that were healed though that were the liver those who experienced salvation and baptism and that will be through it.

[00:34:20] That's what you we've invested in when you help me this year to reach my goal and just that I think it's such a powerful lesson.

[00:34:31] Because really we are a body we are one and if we bring everything back to ourselves all the time even in the realm of money.

[00:34:43] We are losing the focus of unity in the body and with Christ and that was his goal that we were that was his prayer one of his very last prayer.

[00:34:56] And he said that to that like to the unity of this body to the love that we share people will see him and his love through that.

[00:35:11] I think that's the greatest this I could have learned and now it's a fine like I said I applied it in the fundraising part but also just it gives me a passion in the joy when I see.

[00:35:23] I think that's the way they are and how can I empower them to be there how can I be the standard behind them.

[00:35:42] And I think this is the time especially with your kids the way they are the age they are I think now's the time that you need to place inside of them.

[00:35:52] The concept that what would you like to do instead of having them pray to God and having them come to the realization of who God would have them to be.

[00:36:07] And I think that's something that most people don't think about most people always think about their kids and whatever they want to do but really Alexander it should be what God.

[00:36:19] Place them on this earth to do because it says in Jeremiah it says God I know the plans that I have for you God has plans for each individual listening to this podcast today he has a plan for you and what you need to do.

[00:36:38] Is ask God what that plan is and some of you aren't walking in your calling you're not walking in what God has wanted you to do and you know it's okay.

[00:36:53] God still loves you but I don't really think if you're not in your sweet spot Alexander I think you're not really walking in your giftings.

[00:37:03] I think you truly have to be walking where God is and I call it is just being in the perfect will of God now we are at carous and you believe that you are walking where God really wants you.

[00:37:19] What I'd like for you to do is just share a little bit about what God is talking to you about right now the future this summer water your plans and are you planning on coming back next year. So like I said earlier I read something faith challenging situation.

[00:37:39] And last year about a year ago when we decided to move to carous it was a word from God it was clear he gave us peace that desires in our heart were there and because we see him we knew that these desires were from him.

[00:37:57] And so it gave us strength and gave us peace and faith to move on and we've seen got taken away where a lawyer said there were no way where loss that it wasn't possible God made it possible.

[00:38:13] I've learned a lot this year things were not everything was not as expected especially regarding housing but still we haven't word for housing and I know it's not come to pass you but I know it's already done for God.

[00:38:30] And one of the things he put in our hearts as we see him my husband and I is to be here next year.

[00:38:38] He's really pleased desire in my heart that my husband would also come to school and I didn't put any pressure or talk too much about it.

[00:38:48] And I thought he was going eventually to come and recently he started having this desire he started feeling that he was going to come to first year but in order to do that his job was kind of in the way.

[00:39:07] So God gave us a direction that this job was going to be over and after meeting with his boss it turns out that they both felt that way.

[00:39:17] So at first we had peace for that and then we realized that our visa for us to be here in the United States was attached to this job.

[00:39:25] And so at first I must admit that I felt weak I felt overwhelmed not that I didn't know I had the experience I know God is my way maker I know he's my provider and like I've experienced it I've been through that whole year.

[00:39:42] So it wasn't a matter of not knowing in my spirit or having this kind of fiction that we're supposed to be here but what was challenging was that okay do I feel like I have the strength to go all all the ways through that process one more time like the whole.

[00:39:58] And I was not having a place to live yet not having a job not having a visa. Like how do we afford school for the children how do we afford living here at all and now.

[00:40:12] So at first I really felt overwhelmed but within a few days the Lord really strengthened me because I was seeking him the whole time in that I wanted to make sure that it wasn't me refusing to follow his direction.

[00:40:25] Our missing his direction and just when I decided to let go he really showed me like no I brought a for purpose and this person not over so you are a derived place but I needed to give that to her also my will like my.

[00:40:45] And in the sense that you have to let go of everything you will and then do whatever you don't will to do but mostly to be ready.

[00:40:55] That whatever he says is what's best for you like his plans he knows he knows the beginning knows he and you know the way so to trust him in that so that was a journey and then just a couple days ago I was crying a little bit overwhelmed in the hallway as cool and someone stopped talking to me and

[00:41:15] encouraged me and who he's one of the main director of the school and he told me hey you know it's okay to feel weak sometimes. And I needed to hear that I needed.

[00:41:28] I was refusing I really felt like hey I've done almost two years of our college I know better than that I've experienced it I've seen God do the way why am I losing it in my emotions right now why am I not controlling them better than that.

[00:41:43] And so I didn't realize by thinking like this that I was trying to do it on my own and just to hear that it was okay to feel weak just I I am love the I let it go at that moment it was really like.

[00:41:59] That came on me and within a day I really felt strengthened so I really experienced. When you are weak it's where he's strong he revils himself strong in you in your weakness.

[00:42:13] So that really helped me and so for now I know that I'm called to do third year and going to film and production. I actually pursuing a calling on my dad that I've known for years I've heard a lot of words about dense.

[00:42:30] And at first I thought coming to care is that I was kind of putting that dream aside of dancing and arts and joining hearts and ministry together and it turns out that it was the opposite God brought me here and I thought that I was letting go of this but he showed me here in the film and production.

[00:42:51] I was part of the production this year and it really showed me that.

[00:42:56] Yeah again how his plans are better than hours I was thinking of somewhere else for the art training that I wanted and I was thinking that I was coming here on football training but it turns out I know it was the best of both worlds like I really found a place where I can seek how.

[00:43:16] How can I link the power of speaking through arts and the power of the message itself so really I was training the message and next year I really want to train myself with the Lord of course.

[00:43:30] I want him to train me in the in the realm of giving this message in creative ways to have people I love it how our director here at the film production track says.

[00:43:44] Elizabeth Miran keeps saying she wants to fool people into heaven and when I hear her say that it resonates so much within me I want people who are not expecting to hear.

[00:43:54] That that finally they will hear they will see something that's parcule something inside of them that that plant is seed or so I really want to pursue that next year and I really felt like this is my place called there and I believe that yes he has a plan.

[00:44:13] He has a plan for us he's making it's going to make it happen we've seen one first thing.

[00:44:18] Being working for us in the just yesterday so I know I still don't know how I still know which you guys what is going to be the job for the the financial income that we're going to have but what I know is that my god will make everything work for our good when we seek him when we follow him when we.

[00:44:42] When we accept to leave things to pursue him he will like he says in his word he's going to give you double in this life and he's not a liar and the whole year I've seen him give us things that I was an expected.

[00:45:03] I expect in people less than so many ways and the bond we created with people. You know in proper routines that we've read at the beginning it says that a friend.

[00:45:17] But there is a friend who's the closer than a brother and we found those friends this year we found friends that became family because we live with them that was known as I was expecting in terms of housing but.

[00:45:32] Turns out that this this was how God provided this year and I know there's something else coming.

[00:45:41] But through that we've been able to connect and bond with people and the inspiration in their life as they were inspiration hours and help each other because moving here both of our families don't have and other family that hosted us like we don't have our family and.

[00:46:00] And with us so to share life together was an amazing experience growing and humbling and also all of joy that we were not expecting to have so.

[00:46:14] Well that's so good and and I'm going to speak to two versus over you. I know you know these but once again I'm going to go to Proverbs chapter three and it says trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding it's so easy to do that in all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your path and also this verse from Proverb.

[00:46:41] The steps of a righteous man are ordered by the Lord so if you keep walking and where he has called you to go.

[00:46:50] He will reveal himself and things will work out that's my that's my word over you but Alexander what I'd like to do now is just give you an opportunity to share with people.

[00:47:03] You have come to the realization of who God is how much he truly loves you but there are people that might be listening to this podcast today and they do not know.

[00:47:14] Jesus Christ they do not know him as their savior and if you would just share why people need to take this step why they need to grab on to him and that he will change your life if they take that step. Sure.

[00:47:33] First of all I must say that I had a feeling right now like in my heart I really feel like there's one person listening that it's not that you've never acknowledged Jesus as your savior but I don't think you've given your whole heart to him and.

[00:47:51] I think that is you've been wondering why why you feel so dry and why you feel tired and exhausted in your faith but actually the lotus speaking to you right now and he wants to come into.

[00:48:06] Even the messy places of your life or your heart have your past and he just want to be there with you.

[00:48:14] It's not about any work of striving to get over something of your past but it's just allowing him to be part of it because he was there he was not condoning air condoning.

[00:48:28] And condemning everything you've done or anything you've been doing yet condoning anything you've been through but. He was there and his heart for you to get to know him was there and it was some.

[00:48:43] I have to actively looking for you and I just pray right now that we invite him in every area and please face it. Let that you haven't gave to him yet and as you you already know him such just surrender.

[00:49:00] In the same way I talked earlier that I'd just surrender that okay it's okay to believe it's okay to have a pass it's okay to let him be there with you and heal it.

[00:49:13] And I've experienced one healing this way that just allowing his presence and his love in my life just he went back to some some detail my path that I had no clue and he showed it to me and he healed it instantly.

[00:49:29] It wasn't even like a process of inner healing or whatever it was like it's been the word of God is what is most powerful and God is out of the time he can heal this part of your heart right now if you just allow him to be part of it.

[00:49:47] Everybody else was listening and don't know him yet I really feel like if you've been listening you are questioning you are looking for truth.

[00:49:58] And the truth himself is looking for you just just know that he is pursuing you with with his whole heart he's pursuing you with passion and there is no greater passion than the passion of Jesus Christ for you.

[00:50:14] And right now if you just open your heart and if he just.

[00:50:19] If the word says that if you acknowledge and you heart and declare with your mouth you're going to be saved that is just a matter of you saying okay you are pursuing me because you already did what everything.

[00:50:36] That was necessary for me to be in relationship you've hardly mentioned you did year earlier he's done already everything that was needed required because of the sin that is in your life until now.

[00:50:50] He's done everything that is required for that sin to be no more to be no obstacle between you and God. And so if you just invite him receiving right receive him right now receive his pursuit for you.

[00:51:07] So a father and Jesus name I pray that all these people that need to hear more of who you are and receive and a bigger understanding of your love will be inspired today to give you their whole heart to give you their heart completely.

[00:51:27] And I pray by your power Holy Spirit that you speak right now and that you bring true and.

[00:51:35] That you confirm your word with signs and wonders in their lives because you are a God of miracles you are the God of love and you are pursuing every single people you created.

[00:51:52] While that's so good and if anyone repeated that prayer please reach out to me on my Facebook page bill Kelly KEL L. E. Y. And if you have any specific questions about anything you heard today please reach out to me on messenger.

[00:52:08] Now may the Lord bless you and keep you the Lord make us say shine upon you and be gracious to you. The Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace. Friends please join me in tomorrow as we further explore wisdom today.